Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Coming out the water

I can't believe how long i haven't blogged for. But to be honest I haven't been able to let anything out. But today might be the start to new things.

In the past 3 months I've been stretched to an angle in my life that i'm not really used to. I think taking two years off my studying life to focus on myself and my inner strength has effected my studies but i don't regret it for one second but of late, varsity has been pushing me to the limits and my heart has been tested to see if i'm really in it because i'm in it. But not only university but most other areas are also being tested, and not like a class test, more like matric finals or something on those lines.

I think whats been happening is more for myself to see who i really am, i'm starting to see what I say I am or what I say i'm going to do is truly the truth and my heart and my words are connecting as one. I'm not getting it all right but the fighting spirit is definitely there. I'm learning to be more responsible for my own life and actions, simply because I tend to sort out everything else in the world that i end up coming last on the list, it's awesome that i'm coming out of the water and starting to see daylight in my personal life, I can see where I've grown and where i'm growing

Life is an amazing journey which I've come to learn that you can't write the script of your life and then as you read you try live that script that you have written for yourself. Life is bigger than that and the story that unfolds in front of me is greater than any story i could ever Imagen or dream up.

As I grow up and I see the future me to come. I start to understand this uphill that I am on. I'm enjoying this journey and I promise it is difficult but it makes it more exciting.

In all of this I am reminded of a powerful section in 1 Peter 1:6-8 which says,

"So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy."

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